Glamour Bitch

Friday, January 4, 2008

Hi dere.. back again.. hmm.. looks like wad i dreamt in my dreams is totally true..
I dun wana say anything much now koz' my heart has broken into small pieces..
Wad did i do wrong till eu wana do me like this? I noe ur not ready for all this, but y u dun wana let me go? Y u muz make me suffer and cry everyday because of u? Why? All your mistakes all this while ive forgiven but why another thing like this can happen? Why you must make me "malu" in front of your friends saying ur not ready for all this..? But whatever you do to me, i still redha.. Koz i noe, like what muslim/malay people used to say, "Tuhan maha kuasa".. People keep saying to me to make the same thing that you had done to me now.. But i refused.. I got my own way to settle my rumahtangga.. Its true that i can forgive and forget, but what if it happens again? So many things da berlaku since im with you.. Im sad,i doesnt know how to handle it now. You treat me like a princess at home, but treat me like shit outside.. Its a new year, i want to make things different for us.. But i can do it alone. I need your full co-operation and support. I only have you left.. Who am i to turn to for my problems,koz since you know me,its you that i shared my life and problems with.. Saper lagi aku nak bilang ni semer? U asked me to trust you but when i start to trust you, talk good things bout you, this is what i get in return..? Is it? Its true that you said don't open this topic anymore, its settled, but do you know how much that you have hurt me? How much that im being patience with you.. All this while i thought you were so good to me,i thought that what i heard that time,last 2 years back when we have not been solemnised yet,do you remember the incident that i told you that my heart broke like a glass that broke which can never be fixed back? Can remember that? i thought it wont happen again.. i thought it wont... Why god has to give me this type of future? He can easily take away my dad's life but why not me? I do everything to make people happy, but this is wht i get.. a damn shit fuckin life of me.. Whenever i fight with him,he beat me up or what, it reminds me of my Arwah dad n mom fighting and beating me up as well.. hais.. hope that whoever read my blog now,please love the person as much as you loved yourself.. tra=easure them before they are gone..
Till now..

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